So please pardon my lack of updates. Life has been a rush, and i've been just out and about everyday, learning, meeting more people, etc. For those who don't know, (hello close friends who do know), I'm currently studying, so yup gonna leave that as that for now. Still not that comfortable sharing my entire life with the internet as of now........ Diagnostic Radiography in Nanyang Polytechnic. Yup i'm studying to get my diploma in this 3 year course before i go on to get my degree in SIT. Yup slightly crazy, slightly absurd. Yup, Weiling who could barely get in a JC got in and stuggled, and Weiling who could barely get into a uni went to poly. It sucks okay, it sucks having to tell people that i'm in a polytechnic when everyone else in my batch was getting offers from NUS, NTU, and SMU. It sucks when people tell me it's ok, that i'll still get my degree at the end of 4 years, but it isn't because it isn't about the time, it's about the certificate i'll be getting. Well, if i do end up even getting that certificate. But honestly, for the past few days during school, i've been thinking a lot, and is this really that bad? Is it that shameful to say that i'm an 19 year old in a polytechnic, getting my diploma in Health Science after doing my A levels? Is it really? Is it that wrong, to not do what society wants me to? Is it wrong to want to reject a local university offer if one comes eventually? Is it wrong to actually want to stay in this course now? What so bad about getting a diploma after my A levels? You live your life, i live mine. I don't have to care about what people think. "Just get any degree, get any degree in a local university and you's be able to get any job in the future." Really? Really? Are you really telling me that? You are not me and I cannot stand studying Engineering for 4 years nor do that for the next 30 years of my life. You don't even know what i like, you don't even know what i want. Don't. Don't tell me what to do. I want to work with people. I know what i want (ok tbvh i really didn't know what i want but wow epiphany i know what i want now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! O M G) I want to work with people. And here i am in the healthcare line, actually aspiring to specialise in ultrasound. Wow. Is that not something successful? What's wrong with taking this route, when i foresee myself with a rather successful career? What's wrong with taking this route when i actually like it and enjoy studying it? (yes as crazy as it sounds, i do quite like studying nuclear medicine, anatomy, things like that) I'm actually really happy now. It has only been a week into school and it might be too early to say, but i really do enjoy it. Not having any biology or chemistry background is a huge hassle, but i enjoy learning it, i enjoy reading about it. I get lost so many times in lectures, but it intrigues me. It is comforting too, being with a group of people who feel how i feel, whom i'm able to really talk reality with because we all stand in the same boat. Now, i still stand firm in staying until a better university offer comes, so yes there is a chance that i might drop out, but as of now, the chances are rather low (especially since i just paid about $50 for my lab coats???????? Poly is so expensive.). But we'll see. I believe in growing where i'm planted, and i believe that this peace i feel for this course is definitely not something normal, in fact as crazy as it might sound, i believe my drive to want to go to school and everything, may in fact be supernatural. I believe that my future is bright because my Abba Father has planned it all out for me, and i believe that if this is where i'm supposed to be, breakthrough is coming (amen amen amen). I do still compare, i do. After all i'm only human (lol so cliche) and i'm glad that i'm starting to feel better about myself and my life. Thank you friends (esp my buffalo Kingdom friends!!!!) who have been there throughout i love you all.
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